Friends

ughh.
I haven't updated in a few days, I've been soo busy.
I've ate soo much crap, thankfully I've only gained a pound.
I also got drunk for the first time last night, I don't even wanna think of how many calories were in those drinks, those thoughts make the hangover worseee.
I don't even know if I could handle going for my run tonight, I have such a migrane and I could fall asleep while typing this.
any tips on how to get rid of a hangover?

Back to reality.
After 5 days in Portugal I managed to gain 12 lbs!!! OMG tell me this isnt true! I didnt even eat that much argh. I tried to forget about everything whilst  I was away but as soon as i got home and weighed myself i actually wanted to die. I havent been this heavy since before christmas! :(
I also cant make my mind up which feeling is worse:

The feeling of not being able to eat the nicest foods whilst others around you stuff their faces?

or

The feeling of eating these foods then regretting it 2 mins later?

Today ive burnt more cals than ive consumed so feeling slightly better.

Love to you all x

Had another fight with my mother.

She's just about ready to kick me out of the house; Better start packing.

Had nothing but water today. I've decided to put a pic of myself.

Advanced critique is recommeneded.




 

 Ugh I miss you girls like hell.  I don't know if any of you all remember me.  I'm the girl with the controlling boyfriend.  Well we got back together like two weeks ago.  But now our relationship is on the rocks again because he says I need to learn to grow up and not care so much what other people think about me.  But like for the past 3 days all he has been doing is picking apart each and every single one of my character flaws.  And I'm not allowed to say anything back he literally said this about himself, "I have no character flaws"  and he was serious.  Like how do you tell someone with that mindset that they are wrong? It's like impossible.  So I'm just trying to be a littler trooper and endure everything and hopefully the storm will blow over.  In good news I've lost 10 pounds within the last week.  But I owe 5 of those pounds to the food poisoning I had.  But after I had that jump start I was able to lose 5 more because I was determined.   And girls don't do anything stupid.  Food poisoning is NOT fun.  I was in bed sick for 3 straight days and I was delusional and hallucinating in my sleep and my fever was around 103 and I felt horrible.  It was NOT fun.  But yeah I'm down ten pounds now and all I've had for the last 2 and a half days is just 1 piece of cake.  But I've been drinking low cal juice here and there.  And some orange juice.  Stay strong and good energy girls! 

                               

all ive had today is half of a six inch turkey sub from subway.
im about to go swimming. im actually in a good mood today.
=) hope everyone else is doing good. ill be back later and read some posts and stuff. peace out

I need something to eat for breakfast/lunch right now... but I'm out of veggies and fruits right now. :\

any help with some ideas, peoplez?

I am liquid fasting today.
It wasn't planned, but i slept in until 12pm and decided there wasn't much point in eating anything today. I feel quite sick for some reason, possibly oversleeping and the fact that i have been eating too much bad foods for the past three days. I should not have binged. I haven't gained which is good but my body is suffering. Headache, gut pain, dizzy spells, and generally feeling like shit.

How is everyone doing?
x

so yesterday i had 270 calories.
4 pieces of bread= 180 cal
1 biscotti= 90 cal

not too bad of a day.
i was also extremely hung over from drinking on an empty stomach, and slept ALL DAY.
i'm not joking, i slept the entire day.

so this morning i was still 129. BMI 19.6
that backs up my feeling that some of the 4 pounds from yesterday were water weight.
and i'm on the last day of my period,
and everyone knows how good that will be once its over.


x-posted to weightless dolls and almost perfect

So todays my 400 calorie day (: so far 120calories.
Just found out I'm going to my dads for a few days. GREAT HE MAKES ME EAT! He don't bloody eat so why the hell should I?!
So the BBQ on friday, didn't eat a thing :D butt drank tons! So yeah
Yesturday I did go over 200 calories by like 50 so I'm not to pissed with that.

sorry about this but I CAM ON MY F*CKING PERIOD
ERGHHH it hurts so so so much and I am sooo bloated :(

This friday I wanna be 130 I hope I can do it although I am on my period and normally I gain 2lbs, but hey I might aswell pray (:

On wednesday i start my 700calories or less so yeah, that should be easy, i hope (:

anyways, I have to go now. going to my dads (:

love you all <333 xxxxx

Dear Dad,

TVs, video games, a computer, clothes, and buying me things with big price tags do not equal love to me. They do not convince me you love me or want anything more than to shut me up with stuff. Every time I ask you to do something other than watch TV or spend hours on the computer, you talk about stuff you've bought me as if that is supposed to be just as good as you. You moved me out 20 miles from town into the wilderness where I couldn't even go outside because of the wild animals, and money is somehow supposed to undo the psychological damage of being stuck inside, without any friends whatsoever because I lived 'out there'. It's all supposed to be okay, 'cuz Daddy got me a TV.

Dad, I've given up on you. I do not love you, and I will not try anymore with you. I am very sorry, but when you insult me constantly as if I'm pure evil, act as if we live a perfect life, and contradict yourself every three seconds, a TV will not make up for it and I'm SICK of you acting like a four year old.

I'd be worried about hurting you, but I doubt you'll even notice. After all, you're so busy being a computer junkie that you didn't even know what grade I'm in.

I don't plan on calling you while in college. I don't plan on devoting a thought to you.

Though I will admit, TVs will always disgust me now.

Goodbye.